Bleed

Woke up feeling out of sorts today.

Guess I am not feeling good after last week's announcement.
I know the day will come, but I never expected the announcement to be made so soon.

I have been telling myself everything is fine, but deep down, my heart bleeds.

It is really weird coming to work, knowing that your performance no longer affects your appraisal.
That no matter how well you perform, it does not matter anymore.
But any mis-step will result in a swift dismissal.

Things just dun feel right.
There is pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but I have to run the full distance to retrieve it.
Will I be able to complete the lonely journey?

Do I still wanna continue working in the cut-throat IT industry?
Where can I go next? Aviation, Supply Chain Management, Finance, IR related?

My poor wife has suffered from my mood swings recently, but she stopped from picking up any fights.
Guess she knows what I am going through. Sorry, dear.

I have gained 3kg over the past few days and is nearing the 100kg mark again.