1st July 2012 Musings

I am coming to terms with my sedentary lifestyle.
The alarm clock is still set to go off at 4am every morning, but even if I dun make it out of bed or bed, I am cool with it.
Exercise should be a pleasure to do NOT pressure to do.

Saturday morning, din hear the alarm go off. Found my son sleeping on my alarm clock!!!
Sunday morning, turn off the alarm, looked at the incoming SMS and the next thing I know, it is 6:15am! OMG!

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In 2006, it all started with a simple cause. To keep fit.
I enjoyed every run, although it is just a weekly run.

In the following 4 years, I probably sign up for almost all the races available on the Race Calendar! Be it a swim, bike or run, or a combination of two/three disciplines.

By 2010, I was pretty much "burnt out".
But I still went ahead to sign up for the BIGGEST race of my life.

Thanks to the ever positive encouragement from my peers, we manage to suck it up and complete the penultimate race.

I always thought life will stay the same after WA.
That I will be back to riding as usual after the race.
But it does not really felt that way.
A lot of people looked at you in a different light.
I truly hate to hear the phrase "Ah, this (event/race) is "chicken feet" for you.
IT IS NOT!!! Without training, nothing comes easy.
After my spectacular failure at Kuantan, I thought it would have motivate me to train hard for Ipoh.
Sadly it did not.
I valued my sleep more this year as compared to the last five years.
Somehow I just do not wanna be caught yawning while working, although I know it is a pretty normal thing that everyone does.
Kinda hate the thought of drowning myself in coffee just to make it through the day.
I know I will get used to it after a short period of time.
In 2008, my body took less than 2 weeks to get used to the morning rides without requiring further caffeine intake for the rest of the day.
Fast forward 4 years, it is a lot harder...
Having said that, I have no reason to skip weekend rides.
But I do notice one important aspect of the whole exercise lifestyle missing.

MOTIVATION.
I have no motivation to step out of the house.
I pen all these thoughts down to see if it will motivate me to go out and exercise.
I am seeing that it is not helping as of now.